Sunday, August 30, 2009
{ Sunday, August 30, 2009 }
I tried listening for once , and decided to give paying attention and doing work in mother tongue class a chance and what happens ? , i get looked down upon , i get sarcastic remarks , cold treatment and insulted.This is one reason why i dont`t bother studying during punjabi school . I know many look down on me , and i really cannot be bothered to prove myself anymore , i have given up on everything.I don`t want to leave this country , i just wanna run away now .How much can a 16 year old take ? , how many times am i going to keep breaking down ? , How long will i have to keep crying to finally be happy. I wish i was a kid again , everything was great back then , Mom and Dad treated me awesome , and now .. It`s like i`m alone , they don`t understand me , infact not many people do , and when we don`t tell them whats with us , they say we don`t make an effort to be close , what for ? , when all you going to do is ignore my feelings and just lecture me ?Hamzah got in a bike accident , it`s been almost a month and i don`t know how he is and what`s going on with him , i only heard his voice once after the accident , telling him to call me or txt me , but it`s like he`s in his own life , he was my most reliable source when i am down , he`d always say the right thing and he`d end up making me laugh by the stupid things he do.Gurjeet is also another one , whenever i am down , he is always there for me , whenever i cry , i call him and he always make me spill out all my feelings , he gives the best advices for me to smile and then talk to him about normal stuff.Then there`s Ravinder , while i am crying he can make me laugh and make me cry back again.He irritates me almost everyday but he`s really a true buddy , he`s sweet , nice , and idiotic.I seldom see him down , he`s always hyper or high . mad fella.These are the people whom i really don`t wanna leave and migrate .Who will be my shoulder ? , who`d listen to my problems when i`m down .I hope they sign the starhub global thing like how simi did , then it`d be like singapore calling singapore but only thing i`ll be in canada , free somemore ! (:I was a emotional wreck today , i so broke down , and let my emotions take control of me.Well , yeah i feel better now .Thanks , ravinder , gurjeet (:Goodnights.Love ,SharenCAUR.; Don`t try to explain your mind i know what`s happening here.
One minute it`s love and suddenly it`s like a battlefield.
Why isit the smallest thing that brings us down.
These times when we climb so fast to fall again .
I guess you better go and get your armor.
I`m not here without a shield , can`t go back - now.
Monday, August 24, 2009
{ Monday, August 24, 2009 }
There`s two things in my mind that i am stressed up about .
First , N levels are nearing , and so are my days to migrating to Canada.
I seriously don`t wish to go , but i have no choice , sometimes family knows whats best for you , and even if they don`t , they`ll always be by your side . Friends can be found anywhere , but family can never be found or replaced by any tom dick or harry.
That leads to my best-est friends Hannah and khai (:
I know i said friends can be made anywhere , but friends like you both , i will never replace.
Best Friends don`t stop being best friends just cause we are far apart , it stays with us in our hearts no matter where we go.
I`ll miss my 2 angels.
Yeah , there are many other people i would love to mention there`s faiz , idah , izah , jaggu , kiran , manveer , nikki , pamela , priya , taspal , nichaal , fiona , madia , jaggu ,etc.
I`ll miss all my friends , and enemies . I`ll get new ones in Canada also , except they`ll be more bitchier .
There`s mother tongue class tomorrow , 6-9 i doubt i`ll be going .
Well thats all .
Nights ,
sharen (:
I always needed time on my own ;
i never thought i`d need you there when i cried.
When you walk away ; i count the steps that you take.
When you`re gone , the pieces of my heart is missing you.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
{ Saturday, August 22, 2009 }
Yeaps , Prelims are finally over and think i am going to fail , god the exams were hard.
I am just going to chiong for my N level , i mean if i make it , i make it , if i dont , i cant do anything .
It`s all part and parcel of life (:
So yeap , had punjabi school today .. 1 month di , i havent even bought the books.
HAHA , there is gonna be like extra classes also . SIGHS.
Yeah , then the usual nonsense in class , the talking , using phone [ sending songs , etc] , the irritating our teacher. Then after recess Jaspreet , Ravinder and me were telling ghost stories.
Ravinder irritated me today . =( JACKKKKASS (:
Then went home , watched tv the entire time , then now at my cousin`s place .
siggghs.
Movie`s that i have watched.
- Love aaj kaal.
- Kambaq Ishq. - Must watch.!
- Luck - Must Watch!
Movies that i am planning to watch sooon.
- FINAL DESTINATION. !!!!!!!
- J.I Joe.
- The proposal.
- The orphan.
Yeaps , that`s all for todaay !Loves , SharenCAUR!So leave it behind ; cause we have a night to get away.
So come on and fly with me as we make our great escape ; so why dont we run away?
You`ll be my only , baby don`t have to worry .
She aint not miss america.
- Down JaySean Ft Lil Wayne.
Don`t forget to remember me.
Keep me in your heart if we were to ever part.
Here`s to your memory loss , suckka.
I don`t mean to feel like this ; Don`t mean to think like this.
My heart has to be shown ;
that the love that i give to you ; that the love i get from you.
I need to be safe and secure.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
{ Thursday, August 13, 2009 }
Prelims have officially started.
There is no school today , mother tongue paper and i have to study for tomorrow`s SocialStudies and maths paper 1. Gosh , going to have tution soon , neverminds gotta suffer then can enjoy!
Yesterday was english , we had to sit in the hall , like how ppl do for their N and O lvls , it was really scary , sighs.
I wanna paaaass ! do my o levels then get away from this dang country.
I wanna go away and start a new life ; and when i come back no one will recognize me. (:
Aites , imma go study now !
I`m going to be like before , no more texting , calling or be hurt for no shit.
Sharen caur`s back to herself (:
Byyes!
Money music to my ears ; do re me.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
{ Wednesday, August 05, 2009 }
5TH AUG 2009.
WEDNESDAY.
UPDATES !
hahas , well i met anand raj today , at sembawang . ( like finally) .
Yeah we had lodsa fun , i dont know about him but i sure did have the time of my life bullying him.
Yeap ! I pinched him , i bit him , i smacked him , i scratched him , he still has the marks !
hahaks aww , i feel bad now actually , i`m so mean.
But it was not my fault , he was being stubborn ( he knows why). Yeah then i found his psp !
I played BURNOUT with it , eh after long time sia i play that game , and i came in second ! I was first then my car crashed and all . Then anand got irritated with some guys who were making alot of noise with the moterbike , kinda was irritating . Hahas , then we started talking about our own lifes and past experinces , and about what happened in school and stuff.
Then half-way this man came up to us and said this to anand " bang , sorry ah but my friends coming here ah , got important meeting , i dont want you all to get influenced" then we were like oh okay , then we changed block , i started laughing , we were already corrupted ppl , so yeah.
Then we lepak until 6 , then we left . He sent me off till the mrt station we hugged goodbye and we went home (: Anand said i looked tired? i dont know i feel tired.
HAHA.
Kays luh that`s about it .
Gooooodnights !
& u make me happy (:"
Monday, August 03, 2009
{ Monday, August 03, 2009 }
9:37PM , 3RD AUG 2009.
The world is full of hates , even then heats will desire
Even if they die , get wiped out , the ones who love
Their love (story) will stay alive .
- Mohabbatein , Zinda rehti hain un ki mohabbatein.
Mar bi jayen pyaar wale , mit bi jayen pyaarwalen
Zinda rehti hain unki mahabbatein
I`ve been singing this song the whole day ( the hindi version) , hahaks , totally in love with it .
Faiz ace my singing partner , even though he`s malay , he sings awesome hindi songs.
I PASSED MY PUNJABI N LEVEL PRELIM EXAM.
i didn`t get fantastic marks , but i could hardly do the paper with my bloody cramps.
So i`m extremely happy (:
Nighttts !
